Category Archives: Tallulah

Goodbye, again


I wait and ache.

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Well it happened


I missed your birthday, baby girl, I can’t believe it. You’d be five months old now. Meemaw would be trying to feed you some gross shit she cooks and I’d be hollering at her. Maybe you’d be trying to sit … Continue reading

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Goodbye, baby girl


Today marks four months since you died. I knew as soon as I saw you that you were gone. Not a day passes without wishing I’d wake up and you’d still be here. You were buried six days later. I … Continue reading

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Progress


So every baby I see I want to take and every couple I see I wish boiling hot oil would fall from the sky and hurt them badly. These aren’t good feelings. So…umm. Got a new therapist though, first appointment … Continue reading

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I hope (if I wake… you know the rest)


That I wake up in the morning with only the *good* before and after people still in my memories and life. Nothing else. Nothing of me but what I am to them. And I guess that would just leave no … Continue reading

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Trying like hell


To stop myself from thinking about her and the (billion trillion) things I could have (should have) done differently and how nothing that has happened in the last four months (yesterday, was it four months or four years ago or … Continue reading

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